The day was disappointing b/c I had woke up with morning, put on my work out clothes with the real intention of working out before I went and picked up Andrew from daycare but when I left to go workout I just couldn’t get myself to do it! In fact my funky mood was so bad I called to have Jon pick up Andrew from daycare so I didn’t have to. I don’t know why I set myself up for failure and heartache by NOT fighting through the uncomfortable feelings b/c if I just did I know I would do better.
After Jon got home from work we watched “Tooth Fairy” the movie and it was pretty cute but kept cutting at me personally especially since the main message of the movie is NOT giving up your dreams and having the courage to ask "What if?” OUCH!!! Oh well. After the movie I just was still in my funky mood and almost didn’t answer the phone but at the last moment decided to. It was a friend that is going out of town and yesterday had called to see if I would be willing to take care of the Relief Society folders for her while she was out of town…well of course yesterday when I was feeling GREAT I was more than willing to help out but today I just wanted to tell her I couldn’t do it and get ride of the uncomfortable feeling inside BUT when she came over to drop off the folders I just smiled and acted like everything was okay. When I closed the door all of the sudden the folders I was carrying became HEAVY with what if I can’t go to church on Sunday then was do I do…BUT Jon was so sweet and reminded me of what my counselor keeps on telling me…IT ISN’T BLACK & WHITE…so if on Sunday I couldn’t go Jon would be willing to take the folders to church for me. I really am married to the greatest most patient and understanding man ever. WOW I am so lucky!
Then I decided to go get showered and see if that helped me to be able to face the music and do okay taking Andrew to his swim lessons since I had to b/c Jon was going to Ward Temple Night and I wasn’t about to miss a lesson and waste money. It’s kind of funny how much power money has…it can get me out of the house when I didn’t think I could do that today. YEAH!!!
At swim lessons Andrew did so great and really was brave putting his head under water for 3 full seconds. YEAH!!! He got a sheriff badge, went down the slide, and of course got his stamp. I am just so proud of him and I have seen such a difference since the beginning of the week. It was REALLY expensive but Emler is worth it!
So even though today started out very disappointing it turned out to be a day that I was extremely PROUD of Andrew and also proud of myself too for pulling it together enough to help a friend and take Andrew to his swim lesson. I just can’t help think WHAT IF I would have workout this morning would the day have gone better sooner? I guess we’ll never know but I am okay with what I did get done today! YEAH ME!!!
Sorry NO pictures today…I guess I really was struggling today! =)
2 comments:
Lexie I'm so happy you're doing so much better!! :D My motto for when I have good intentions that don't get met instead of beating myself up for it over, and over, I just say, "Shoulda, woulda, coulda, but didn't so next time I will." Then if the next time rolls around and the same things happens, once again, say the quote, "Shoulda, woulda, coulda, but didn't, so next time I will." :D haha Believe me it works wonders. :D Who needs to waste time beating themselves up over a maybe or what if, or what could of, change what you can. Learn from the past, and change the future. :D Love ya!! Thanks for your sweet commment!! I've missed you!! :D
Girl, I say a big AMEN and HALLEULIJAH to Hanah's comment. Don't beat yourself up about things. Look at what you DID do...you said yes to a friend and took Andrew to swim lessons. I bet that made his day! I am SO HAPPY you are blogging again and taking pictures of "EVERYTHNG" as Jon commented! :)
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